But Lord Moments

I was reading in Acts 9 where God met Saul on the road to Damascus. Saul had papers in hand with permission to persecute believers and throw them in jail when God blinded him and called him to be a minister of the Gospel. God then spoke to a believer in Damascus named Ananias to go pray for Saul to receive his sight. Ananias responded like many of us, “But Lord!” He reminded God who Saul was and what he had come to do. Then God told him what He had in store for Saul. The Bible says that Ananias then went to find Saul and pray for him. Saul regained his sight and was baptized.

Ananias isn’t the only one to say, “But Lord,” to God. When God called Moses to lead the children of Israel out of Egypt, he said, “But Lord I can’t speak.” When Gideon was called upon to deliver Israel from Midian he said, “But Lord I’m too weak.” When Jeremiah was called to be a prophet, he said, “But Lord I’m too young.” When Peter was told to cast his nets on the other side of the boat, he said, “But Lord, it doesn’t make sense. I’ve been fishing all night.” In each of these instances, they did push back, but they also obeyed. Instead of trusting what they thought to be true, the believed what God told them. Each time, God responded to their hesitant faith.

When I’m faced with those same moments of hesitation, I think of Psalm 56:3. It says, “But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in you” (NLT). Honestly, our hesitation is born out of fear. We’re afraid of the same things these people in the Bible were afraid of. We think we can’t speak, we’re too timid, too young or that we will look foolish. We can be honest in those moment like the psalmist and admit we are afraid. However, we must also take that next step of faith and say, “Nevertheless I will trust you, Lord.” When we take that step of faith, God will strengthen you and meet you just as He did in each of the stories above. You can trust Him because He’s already standing in the place He’s called you to.

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