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Being An Open Book

I’ve heard some people say they’re an open book, while I’ve known others who are very private people. No matter where you fall on that spectrum, there are two things I’ve found. We all wear a mask to some degree. We put it on when we are around others. We show them a person we think others will like. We also have a part of ourselves that’s hidden. It’s the part we don’t show others because we think if others knew this about us, they may not like us or think poorly of us. It’s where we hide our fears, insecurities and hidden sins. Even if we’re great at hiding it from others, God sees it, and He still loves you.

In John 4, Jesus was tired from walking and stopped at a well. The disciples left Him there while they went to find food. Soon a Samaritan woman came to draw water by herself. To her surprise, Jesus then asked her for a drink. She reminded Him that Jews despise people like her, He then hinted at who He was. After some conversation, He told her to go get her husband, to which she replied that she didn’t have one. He responded by telling her how many times she had been married and was living with a man. He showed He knew what was hidden and loved her still. She then ran into town telling everyone to come and see a man who knew everything about her. They all came to meet Him and He stayed there a couple of days bringing many to the faith.

Psalm 139:1-2 says, “Lord, you know everything there is to know about me. You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and you understand my every thought before it even enters my mind” (TPT). God sees all the hidden places of your heart and life. He knows everything about you and still loves you. The psalmist continues in verse 17, “Every single moment you are thinking of me! How precious and wonderful to consider that you cherish me constantly in your every thought!“ You don’t have to be afraid or think that He would love you any less. Let Him come in, examine those areas and forgive or heal those parts of your life. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are known and loved as an open book to God.

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Wonderful Not Worthless

I was doing a self affirmation exercise with a group of people several months ago. In the exercise, the people are to think of a quality that they don’t posses but want to have, and then use present tense verbs to say they have it. One lady stood up and said, “I am enough.” In that moment, my heart broke. She believed she wasn’t enough and her actions in life were in line with that belief. When the group shouted back, “You are enough!”, her face lit up. For the first time in a while, she began to believe she was enough.

Many people live with feelings of inadequacy. They feel that they don’t measure up to the standards others have set for them. They put on a show for others to see, but inside, they’re dying. They do things to compensate for these insecurities hoping that it will give them worth in someone else’s eyes. They never feel like they will measure up, but they never stop trying to be the person others want them to be. All they want to be is enough so that they will be accepted.

If that describes how you feel, let me direct you to Psalm 139:14. It says, “I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well” (NASB). YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made. You were designed and created by God with a specific purpose in mind. His works are wonderful, not worthless. Since He made you, that means you are wonderful too, even when you don’t feel like it.

We know from I Samuel 16:7 that God doesn’t measure you by your outward appearance, but by your heart. He looks beyond your actions, through your walls and into your heart. He sees you for who you really are, and He still thinks you are wonderfully made. If you are struggling with your self worth, let me encourage you to say what that lady in my group said. I want to you to say, “I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am enough.” The more you say it, the more you will believe it. God has already said it to you and He believes it. Now it’s your turn to believe it and act on it. What God says about you is more real than what any person says.

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Inadequate And Insecure


I’ve been on a few mission trips where we’ve done construction work. On day one, they like to go around the circle and have each person talk about their skills. One guy says he can build shelving. Another says he’s good at framing. One always says he can do it all. Inevitably it always comes around to me. I like to say, “I’m the best gopher around. If you need nails, I’ll go for them. If you need a certain tool, I’ll go for it.” My skill set makes me feel very inadequate on a construction site. 

Even when it comes to ministry and my calling, I often feel inadequate. I was at a conference of ministers earlier this year. They started off with introductions and sharing all they’re doing. As they went around the table, I began to compare what I do to what they were doing. I sent my wife a text and said, “What am I doing here? I don’t belong. They’re sharing all they’re doing in ministry, and I’ve got nothing.” I was feeling very insecure. 

If you look at where God has you or think of what God has called you too, you’re going to feel inadequate. It’s easy to say, “God, I’m not qualified to do this,” or “God, there are other people who are better at this.” I’m sure David, being a shepherd, felt inadequate in front of all those soldiers when Goliath came out. I’ve learned that God doesn’t always take our skill set and put us where it should fit. He looks at our heart, and puts us where he needs that most.

When I feel inadequate, I take comfort in knowing the apostle Paul felt that way too. In 1 Timothy 1:12, he wrote, “I’m so grateful to Christ Jesus for making me adequate to do this work” (MSG). He understood what we need to learn. It’s God who makes us adequate to do what He’s called us to do. It’s not our skills or anything else. Our inadequacies cause our faith to grow and helps keep pride out. It is not us who do the work. It is Christ through us, and that makes us more than adequate to do anything God asks us to do. 

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